something i wrote on my other blog.. i wanted to share it with everyone...

something i wrote earlier today...

you will always stand tall

Today marks one year. I dont want to call it an anniversary, but today just marks one year. I woke up not knowing what today was. I hopped into the shower and got dressed and while I was geting ready for school I turned on the radio and I heard that there was no music, but the names of the people who were killed that day. My heart became heavy and my chest tightened and i felt tears forming in my eyes. I guess that I wanted to forget this day and just think of it as if it was just another day in the year. As I walked to the train station, I bought a newspaper and waited for the train. I was surprised that at 9am there was hardly anyone on the trains. When I got to hunter, there was hardly any people there. The ambush of smokers have taken the day off and the elevators just made 5 stops.

When I got home an hour later, I found my parents eating and watching the ceremony that was being held at "ground zero". The ground was plowed and you would have guessed that they were making a parking lot if you didnt know what happened a year ago and what stood tall that day. There was a picture of a policeman sitting on a box and had this sad yet expressionless face. People squatting near a wall and their faces burried in their hands, People holding pictures of the loved ones that were lost and never found. Babies being held and not knowing what is going on and the wind blew... picking up dust. People on the ramp walking to the site to show their respect being covered by this light dust. It reminded me of what happened a year ago. all the things I wanted to forget just came back when I saw the people walking in the dust. The cool breeze blew as the people were saying the names of the victims, civilians,officers, men, women, mothers, fathers, sons, daughters, wives, husbands, friends, loved ones... A chill goes down my spine and once again my heart is heavy and my chest tightens.. i wish this day would be over so I dont have to relive these feelings again.