i'm a cat.

what kinda pet are you?



quiz made by muna.


ahhh so many things to do.. write my papers, read poo soon it will all be over and I hope I can finish everything soon!

Today was my buddy Jennay's birthday! I'm not sure if she was all that happy but I hope she was. A couple of us planned out this surprise party at the VERY LAST minute. haha I have to say that it turned out well. Paulie and I took her out while a couple of people broke into her house and decorated it. I have to say it was really nice for 2 rolls of streamers and some balloons.

I guess that everything was good before I saw that one person. When I saw them, everything just came crashing down. I tried not to let it get to me, I didnt think about it when me and Paulie took Jenny out for some ice cream and some walking, but when I got up stairs.. i just didnt want to be there anymore, but I stayed for jenny. I tried to leave, I made this excuese that I had to turn off the fax machine because I wouldnt be able to get any calls and stuff, but my friend told me to stay so I did and he drove me home with everyone else. I didnt look or speak to that person. Things that came out of that person's mouth just pissed me off. Sometimes I just want everything to go away and I want to just start a new life. I dont care if I'm alone or however how ever long it takes me to make new friends, better friends but I'm willing to take that chance. I wish I could see things in their eyes so I can see if I'm doing the right thing. I dont want to be making decisions because of what I'm seeing, but I should be doing things for me and not for other people. I wonder if this person notices our deteriorating friendship. I wonder if anyone else notices it. I doubt they do.. sometimes I wonder if people are living in this dream world they created, where everything is perfect... I guess I'm the only one that is living in reality...

What song fits my mood:
Splendor - I Think God Can Explain

"There's a lot of things I understand. And there's a lot of things that I don't want to know... It's alright, I'm OK. I think God can explain. I'm relieved I'm relaxed. I'll get over it yet..."

... shall i hold my breath until you notice what your doing to me? ...



Which car are you?

Rain, rain go away; Come back another day! I dont mind the rain cuz I like the soft pitter-patter sound but going out in it SUCKS. The bottoms of my pants are all wet xP I'm just chillin til I get a little drier so I can walk around my room without making a muddy mess. I should vacuum in here (even if my stupid lil dust buster does nothing! It doesnt suck up anything!) Roomie's side of room is messier than mine (in terms of the floor being litters with little specs of stuff). AnyhOos... I've been neglecting my blogs; its hard keeping THREE of them. More people seem to read the Xanga one more even though Xanga blows! I have to post on my greymatter one, I havent posted there in TWO days. Nothing interesting has been going on anyway. Okay.. I must stop babbling about boring stuff; I have to program now! xP *muah* misses and kisses to Ply! Hope you come to China Night!

I just came back from my fencing dinner. It seems to me that I like my team mates better than so of the friends I have. I seem to be avoiding a certain person, but I dont think they see it. Why should they when they've been avoiding my feelings. I dont care how close we are, I dont like being treated this way. I will not be ignored this time. Empty promises are not allowed at this table anymore. I'm saying it now, I GIVE UP I hold up my hands in the air, I'm walking away and I dont want to look back. I don't care if you just realize what you've lost, I finally know what I'm worth, and its a heck of a lot more than what you've given me. If I lose everything I dont care, because I will now do anything for happiness...

Whats Playing:
Madona - Take A Bow

Take a bow the night is over. This masquerade is getting older. Lights are low the curtains down. There's no one here, there's no one here there's no one in the crowd. Say your lines, but do you mean them. Do you mean what you say when there's no one around...You took my life for granted why oh why, the show is over say good bye.

haha.. sorry I've been MIA from sticky rice! I miss you too Ply! Can't wait til next weekend.. you're comin' down right? You better! AnyhOos... I have a new guy on the mind now hah.. Ply already knows but I dont want to say anything to jinx it hah.. We talk more, which is good, but then it gets awkward when there's silence. He never likes when I dont talk when I'm on the phone with him heh. Well I'm not stressing it. I'm not going to see him for a while 3 1/2 months after finals are over so no need to get attached, right? Okay I'm getting sleepy... even when I did take a nap today too heh...



Which car are you?

No more math for me :) I just withdrew from my class yesterday :) I'm so happy. I had some good bonding time with one of my favorite people, Alex. Found out that Bill Clinton is going to be holding a lecture at my school on May 6th so I dont have to go to Chinese class cause its going to be a Mad House in my school that day. Everything seems to be going excellent right now. People have been giving me bad vibes on the phone but I'm not letting that get me down. I have notes to take but I'm oh so LAZY! i need to get my BUTT in check ASAP! haha I better go and do my notes now ... poo

What am I jumping to?
Wheetus - Teenage Dirtbag

Yea I'm just a teenage dirtbag baby!
Listen to Iron Maiden maybe with me?

P.S. where has Jenkie gone? haha I miss her

which children's storybook character are you?

this quiz was made by colleen

hmmm is it telling me something?

I dont know if my life is going according to plan.. but it sure is getting better. I got my History test back today and I got a 92. I have to say thats one of my highest scores this semester.. I always liked History and by me doing well on this tests.. it brings back memories.. i wish that the same would happen with math. I can picture my late math teacher, Mr. Drillings, saying to me that I can do math... i miss him.. he was always my source of confidence.. he had confidence in me and I thought that was a big push. He showed me that I can tackle these problems and i can actually do them.. I wish I could go up to him and just ask him for help or those words of encouragement...

I went to the art department today and I might do a minor in studio art and a major in Political Science.. haha I know they're two different things but I want to do something that makes me happy and something I will enjoy.. haha okies getting late need sleep

Me: hey are u gonna be rich later on when u get a carrer and everthing?
David B: yeah why?
David B: you want money?
WoOsh pLy: haha
WoOsh pLy: i'll have money dont worry
Me: just wondering.. haha i was gonna ask u to marry me but i decided not to
David B: ewww
David B: FINE!!!
David B: why not?
Me: haha i remembered i already have 2 people
Me: but if u want u can marry me too
David B: well 3 isnt' too bad
Me: the requirements are to be rich and when ur 35 and single u come to me and say Hi ply will u marry me
David B: haahaa
Me: *so are you in or out?
David B: i'm in
Me: :-)
David B: but you have to do something for me too
Me: whats that?
David B: no clue
David B: i'll figure it out
Me: HAHA
Me: no no making the deal now
Me: no clause can be made after

haha we're still trying to agree on something :)

Whats taz[ply] singing to:
Michelle Branch - All You Wanted

I didnt know that it was so cold and you needed someone to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out that when the time comes I'll take you away
If you want to I can save you
I can take you away from here
So lonely inside so busy out there
and all you wanted was somebody who cares

The Band Quiz By Rahel

I think I'm going to make a separate section on my webpage for allllllllllllllllllllllll the results of all the quizzes I take, including the past ones... This is when I have too much time on my hands :)

The Band Quiz By Rahel

haha I wanna be rich...

Me: hey are u gonna be rich when u grow up?
Igor: I FUCKING HOPE SO!!!
Me: haha well if ur rich and single at 35
Igor: dammn i wanna be rich lol
Me: wanna marry me :D
Igor: hey alright sure

Me: i just proposed to my friend LOL
Me: ok i'm a loser.. shhh
David: proposed?
Me: i asked him to marry me
Me: :-)
David: wat about me ?
David: hehe
Me: haha ok if u wanna marry me too then sure :D
David: NoOooOOOOoooo i dont share
Me: when hes 35 and single and rich we're gonna get hitched
Me: same thing goes for u
Me: :D
Me: who ever gets rich first gets.. me :D
David: ooooooooooooooooooooo
Me: haha good prize huh'
David: oh yea
David: very good prize
David: hehe
David: taz , u cant marry anyone else .. you belong to ME
Me: awww
Me: haha i'm like a sock
Me: i belong to someone
David: =)

Me: u better watch out
Me: u might get booted for scrolling
Jef: uhh?
Me: haha i guess it never happened to u yet
Jef: u got booted by who?
Me: aim will boot u LOL
Me: haha try it and see
Me: they might not boot u but u cant type
Jef: those racist bastards
Jef: this is all because i'm chinese isn't it?
Me: haha
Me: its a conspiracy i tell u

haha did i ever tell u how much i love my friends.. specially the guys!

What am I singing to:
Even and Jaron - The Distance

I cant take the distance. I cant take the miles. I cant take the time until the next time i see you smile.

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bleck, i wanted to be natural!

So its almost 4:30am and I'm bloggin! I just got back from the Indian Fashion Show after party. The show was reeeeeeeeeeeeeeally good.. makes me wish I could organize a Thai show but that will never happen.. Not enough Thai people! The after party was aight... cept for the $20 fee to get in!!! WTF is that.. my god they made mad money.. even show participants had to pay money. Thats messed up. But I had fun. I kinda got my "freak" on with Ben =x I dont know what's wrong with me. Whenever I'm around testasterone, I just always want to be near them, always want to be hugged or held or just plain flirty!! So bad, I know it. I had fun at the party though.. and I drank! Not much really. Ben got a midori sour and I just had a couple sips. I had to drink something! It was mad hot up in there. Yea so I hafta get up tomorrow and try to program =T I better call it a night.

Thank you Ply! I'm happy I got the site managers position too. See? Hard work does pay off... hehe so does kissing ass. hahaha :D

Today is David's 21st birthday [David Wu]. I just wanted to wish him a HAPPY BIRTHDAY I think I'll write about him since its his b-day. David was my first "real" boyfriend. We still have this argument about how we met, haha I swear that he told me to "massage his head", but thats not the point. We met when I was in the 7th grade and we started going out. I loved being with him, haha we would lock ourselves in my friend's bathroom and just sit there and talk and do a little kissy kissy LOL. I remember why we broke up too.. He didnt tell me that he moved and I was crushed that he lied to me..but we went out again.. I think we went out about 5 times. He always seems to find me when I've disappeared. He always seems to know what to say when I'm down. Hes very persistant in telling me how special i am, even though to this day I still dont believe him. Its too bad that we're not going out anymore.. but I guess its my fault. I wish him the best and I hope to see him again.

CONGRATS TO JENNY FOR GETTING THE MANAGEMENT JOB! WoOo HoOOo a RAISE means MORE MONEY for PLY! .. I mean.. you :D

Find out which Moulin Rouge song you are.

its late i should sleep..

I've been playing around with a new background for my website while talking to my Pookie. We discussed how I felt about my "friends" and it makes me wonder if I deserve to be treated this way. I'm sure that I did not ask my "friends" for anything. I feel like every promise to change was an empty promise. Jef told me to just take off for a week and not tell anyone, and when I come back then they will miss me. Why would it take me leaving and not telling them where I'm going for them to miss me. I dont see these people all that often, and when we do see each other... they treat me no different from the day I told him how I felt. Sometimes I feel that whatever I say to them, just goes in one ear and out the other. I just don't want that title the gave me, I don't want it to be all a lie. I;ve been working too hard to try to bring myself up, but it just doesnt seem to be working. I can't feel like this anymore because its not good for me. I just want to go away and never come back. I want to be forgotten, I want to start all over. I just want to disappear, so I can find out who I am and what I'm worth..

Whats Playing:
Hoobastank - Running Away

i dont want you to be by my side
and tell me that everythings all right
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
you know I'd do that for you...

I did enough to show you that I was willing to give and sacrafice
I was the one who was lifting you up
when you thought you had enough.
when I get close you turn away, nothing that I can do or say

... If you did care, you wouldn't make me feel like this ...

David: Would you say my mind is immature?
Me: i think all guys are immature to some level
Me: :-)
David: uh...
David: you're just sexist

lolz...

I'm actually in a tutorial class right now and I dont know what is going on because I came in 10 mins late heh.. And the TA is having a problem and is phoning another TA on his cell right now heh... I'll have to stay for the next session to understand what's going on. Oh well. I have a paper cut on my finger and it STINGS. I hate paper cuts :(

Ply! Miss u! heh...

I saw him today and he waved at me heh... I only saw him and didnt notice my other friend sitting at his table hah.. oops. My friend IMmed me later and was like "why didnt you wave at me? hehe.. Sorry Jonathan! :)

Oh, the TA's going to start over, lets see if I can catch up :)

Its almost 7pm and I havent even started my program for CSE 333 (which is due tomorrow) yet. Oh well. I think I'm going to hand in this assignment late heh... I'm so lazy and this weather is not helping at all. I took a nice long shower and I feel a lot better but it didnt cure my laziness :)

Ply! You shouldnt make plans to meet up with David anymore. He's a bum haha.. I want a Ball Drink too!!

I think I want to go home this weekend to take back all my winter clothes because its taking up too much room in my closet. Plus I want to go out and buy new sandals :)

I got this im today from, David

David: Ply..
Auto response from Me: went to school to do a little fencing.. need me call my cell..
David: i love you
David: please don't hate me
David: i got too hot and just went to kung fu

Ok if he did love me, he wouldn't ditch me right?? I think hes just saying that so I wouldn't get mad at him :P hey DAVID you owe me a BALL DRINK!

Today wasnt a bad day. I got my math test back and it didnt bother me. I didnt let it get me down, I just let my life go on as if nothing happened. I was supposed to meet up with David but it didnt work out this time. It never really does anymore. Maybe we should just not try to meet up. You know just to save ourselves time :)

I dont know whats wrong with me, when i'm at school I'm happy and I just feel comfortable, but when I come home.. I feel like I'm coming back to reality. All my thoughts that I leave behind in the morning just come back to haunt me when I come back. I sit there and think about everything there is to think of, things that bother me, things I have to do and everything else. I guess I'm just trying to find my way, and its harder than I thought. I feel like I was decieved and things that happened in my life was lie. Goodness.. i need to get out of this house.

What's taz [ply] singing to:
Nina Gordon - Tonight And The Rest Of My Life
"Down to the earth I fell, with dripping wings, heavy things won't fly. And the sky might catch on fire and burn the axis of the world thats why, I prefer a sunless sky to the glittering and stinging in my eyes..."

Randomness || I fell asleep with my contacts in last night and didnt realize it at all til I woke up til morning and my eyes felt funny. So I took them off for an hour and then put them back in before I went out to class...

CSE class was pretty fun today, we had a guest lecturer since ours took a vacation to China hah... There was a kid sleeping in the first row so McKenna (the guest lecturer) took his mic and put it up to the kid's face so everyone could hear him snoring hahaha...

My back hurts. I think I need a massage!

Ben tells me I work too much. I dont think that's such a bad thing. So what if I work too much? Is it so bad that I want good grades, I want to graduate with honors and get a good job??? He doesnt like that I work, I dont like that he drinks and lacks .. determination... like he knows what he wants from life but doesnt do anything about it. He thinks I dont have fun. I'm sorry but drinking every Thursday night does not constitute as fun in my dictionary. I have fun sometimes when I'm with my friends and what not. I just happen to be career-driven with goals and aspirations set ahead of me and will do whatever it takes to get to that point. Everything in my life is a result of something. I dont think Ben realizes WHY I'm so neurotic when it comes to me and my work. Someday he'll know.

well i dont really feel like writing a whole new entry so i'm cutting and pasting what I wrote on Expressions From the Heart :)

So my attempt to chill with David didnt go too well. I didnt really think that we were going to meet up cause I wanted to go home and change since it was so hot outside. So i called him at 4 and told him that I would change and call him back when I'm done. I called him back and I asked him where I should meet up with him and he said in queens, so I waited for him. I waited so long that I got to finish 13 Ghosts and since i was STARVING I ate the Thai fried rice I made and just waited some more. Well finally he called when Miyoung,Nutty and Joe. He fell asleep on the train and was on his way home. I wasnt disapointed. We're gonna make another attempt to see him tomorrow... i think this one might work cause I'm gonna meet him in school. LOL So Miyoung,Nutty,Me and Joe returned the movie went to 82nd so I can buy some b day cards and a card for Sunny and then Joe went back and Me Nutty and Miyoung walked towards the bus and I was stopped by a cop.. I had no idea who the guy was cause he tapped me and then my friend Carlos tapped me so I thought that it was him that tapped me but the cop kept looking at me and he was like you dont remember me and i was like no sorry and he was like Mike from Bronx Science and I was like OH SHIT! haha damn he looked so different. Hes in the police acadamy. It was so good to see both Mike and Carlos. The cop stopped the bus for miyoung too haha it was so funny. So Me and Nutty walked to 82nd and we just talked the whole way.. then we left and here I am right now :)

Whats taz [ply] swaying to:
ATB - Let You Go (Club Remix)
I can do all the familar places. I've been running like a sentence never begun. I've been looking for a world to let you know.I've got nothing to fill the spaces...

You know what's funny? For as long as ever, Dan has always been my 'standard' for all males in my life hah... Then all of a sudden I met him... In all honesty, it was one smile and the way he looked at me that hooked me to him. It sounds stupid but there was something pure about it. Well maybe I'm just naiive. But he really got me to open my eyes and realize there are guys out there that could amount to more than Dan was (at the time we went out); even if he didnt turn out to be the one. Only few people would understand how significant this is... Me looking past Dan... I just never thought I could ever do that. Okay, I sound insane.

The test today didnt go well. I think I may have gotten at most a 30... out of 61 points! Err.... Hopefully the class avg was low...

I woke up in a panic cuz the first thing I thought of was my Midterm today... So I got up on the first alarm ring so that I'd have time to compose myself and get my thoughts straight ... hafta go to work soon and cram for my exam... Wish me luck!

I finally finished my paper.. i made it 4 pages long. FINALLY I CAN SLEEP!!!

Whats ply [taz] listening to:
The Wallflowers - Sleep Walker

haha i think thats funny :)

I'm at ICS right now waiting for my next class to start. I dont have a watch today so I hope that the time is right on this comp :) I dont seem to know what to write about because I mostly write on my other blog site (Expressions From The Heart) hmm well I guess that I will talk about what I have today and what I hope is going to happen today. Well today I've woke up pretty early, I got to eat some breakfast and talk to my mom and headed for school. I know that its surprising but I didnt really get into a fight with my mom so hopfully today will be a good day :) I went to chinese and now I'm waiting for music to start, then off to history to hand in my really bad paper. Then hopfully I will meet up with David and I know that somethings going to happend and we're not gonna meet up so I'm not holding my breath on that one :) haha yups.. well i'm gonna go and grab some grub!

You know when I went to Wat today... er... yesterday... Mike kept bringing me food lolz. We sat outside and ate and after he would finish he would be like "be right back" and then come back with something else, one for him, one for me lolz. I cant hang out with that kid for too long, I'll eat too much!!

~ I need someone to take me to the supermarket to get toothpaste! I'm runnin out... I'd buy it at the market on campus but they overcharge like CrAzY... I had to buy a bottle of solution; the one I wanted was $11!!!!! So I settled for simple Bausch & Lomb for $8 over the ghetto brand for $4. I wouldnt want my eyes to fall out if I got the ghetto brand :)

Happy New Year! I cant believe that I actually went to Wat today but it was pretty fun. Hung out with childhood friends and just played like kids. I miss those days where you can just run around screaming and not have a care in the world! So Jenny has been working on this blog site haha she just added some more links and things like that, I could have did that. Maybe I might start to work on some stuff with Photoshop and send her the stuff and see if she can use my ideas.. thats if I can get photoshop to work! haha yups, better get going and see what my friends are doing and go back to wat and get some REVENGE on people!

Whats Ply [Taz] Listening To?
Faboolous - Holla Back


Which TRL girl are you?

I'm adding my post here so it doesnt look like I blog too much in a day hahah. AnyhOos... I dont know if people will get angry with me but I started talking to him again... it was sort of an impulsive thing. I put him back on my buddylist over the weekend and tried the best I could not to IM him the past two days, but then last night I just decided to say hi to see what he was up to. Turns out that he's dropping out of the Comp Sci major and is going to do Finance/Marketing... which means he may have to transfer to a different school. So there's a bunch of things going on with him; so I dont blame him for feelin' bleH sometimes. I tried to cheer him up a little but I dont know whether or not it worked. Oh well. But yea, so I started talking to him again and I still think it was wrong what he did to me, but I figure if I shut people out like that then I wont have many friends in life. I dont know if that makes sense. He's a jerk, yet I want to be friends with him? Haha... yea. Perhaps someday I'll learn WHY he did that to me. Girls are weird sometimes.

Currently playing: Creed - Dont Stop Dancing


Which TRL girl are you?

Aiyahhhhhhhhhhh why am I still up and doing this????

This template is too mellow for our title hehe :)
Oh well, its still purty haha

Happy Thai New Year!! Happy Wun Songkran!

test test... does this work?